Four weeks from now I’ll be walking all night in support of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, in an effort to bring money and awareness to a cause that touches me to the deepest corners of my heart.
In the past year this has become something of a crusade for me. A crusade of honesty, openness, and support. I walk because every day I feel lucky to be here, and because without the support and love that has been at times so desperately needed, I know I wouldn’t be.
So I think it’s only right that I acknowledge that I’m having a really hard time. It isn’t Depression as I’ve experienced before and I assure those of you who might be concerned that I’m not in any kind of danger.
I am just incredibly sad. I am sad about almost everything. And I don’t know why. Because externally there isn’t any reason for me to be sad.
And that is exactly what the Overnight Walk is for. Supporting and assisting those who feel incredibly sad with no external reason. Or actually, for some people, for many, there ARE external reasons.
The point is that with Depression, it doesn’t matter if it’s something you can point to or not. All that matters is that you keep going. That you walk through the night until the sun comes up.
There is nothing in my life I am more proud of than the fact that I’ve stuck around long enough to know and believe that if I just wait long enough I can get through anything.
You stick it out for another day, another week, another month, however long it takes, whatever it takes.
And you realize how wonderful it is to be here: to be you, with all the pain and anger and hurt that comes with.
Because it also comes with so much joy, so much laughter, so much love.
And so I’m gonna walk through the night because I know the dawn is worth it.
Love to you,